Just because I love it. Just because it feeds my spirit. Just because I look forward to it every single day, does not mean that it’s easy. It’s rewarding–incredibly so, but it’s also demanding–incredibly so. And though I am generally buoyed by all that is good and all that is great, there are days when the buoy is not enough, and I sink beneath the surface, a hand become periscope seeking succor, asking for aid in a sea vast and lonely. Today, I’ve not the strength to tread. Today, I’ve the mind to give in, to float away, letting the weight pull me under, washing away the worry. But then, I remember. I remember that I promised Riley we would read through her Passion Paper. I remember that I promised several kids they could do retakes during access time today. I remember that we have to do Learning Logs in fourth and fifth period still. I remember. I remember…well, I remember too much. And with a sigh, I begin to swim. I have to. Too much to do. Too many to help.
I should stay home today. But I won’t. I will drink even more coffee. I will overdose on Alka Seltzer Cold Plus. And I will survive. And the kids will help. They always do. Funny how devoted we become to those with whom we, in the end, spend so little time. I am always amazed at the hold they establish over me. And I know I am not alone. And so a shout to all who ride the waves with me every day, caught in the ebb and flow of an existence beautiful and impossible, an existence sustained only by the young lifesavers that right our ships in our greatest moments of need.
…begin with Smiles and Frowns.
…survive. (Promises to keep/Miles to go before I sleep)
…reflect in Journey Journals
…end with a Sappy Sy Rhyme.
Happy Tuesday, all.
Do. Reflect. Do Better.